"A polka-dot has the form of the sun, which is a symbol of the energy of the whole world and our living life, and also the form of the moon, which is calm. Round, soft, colorful, senseles, and unknowing. Polka-dots can't stay alone, like the communicative life of people, two or three polka-dots become movement. Polka-dots are a way to infinity."

I've spent my sunday at Museum of Modern And Contemporary Art in Nusantara or they called it MACAN. Special exhibition from Yayoi Kusama: Life is the Heart of a Rainbow.

Yayoi Kusama is a Japanese Artist that we known from her characteristic of her paintings, sculptures, videos, and that popular Infinity Mirrored Rooms have transcended into global culture. The exhibition traces Kusama's development over seven decades, beginning in Japan in the early 50's, moving to New York in the 60's and returning to Japan in 1973 where Kusama lives and works right now. Life is The Heart of a Rainbow is represented her iconic motifs and themes through her career.

I wanted to see her work since August last year in Singapore. But unfortunately, we were running out of tickets and the schedule wasn't right and bit tight. So yeah, here I am. Before I tell you guys about this, I am so sorry if I can't remember the whole name of the art. It was pretty hectic. One ticket only last for two hours and the queueing was reaaally insaaaaaaaane. Phew *Exhale*

The purpose of going to Art Exhibition is to enjoy the Art, right? But I didn't get that kinda feeling here. They gave a reaaallyy short time for every booth. So we only have two choices; either you gonna maximize the time for take some photos or you just gonna look around and mesmerized with the art instead. Well, I understand the visitors was quite crowded so they managed the time as short as it is just so everyone can experienced everybooth.

Picture 1: Tiny cubicle that has endless blinking lights, this was amazing.

First thing first.

Where is it exactly?

It's located in AKR Tower Level MM, Kebon Jeruk West Jakarta.

Where can you get the ticket?
I bought like month ago via website.
You can buy on the spot, but.... better save your time to buy online here: 

Museum Macan - Yayoi Kusama

How much for the admission fee?

Adult IDR 100,000

Students IDR 90,000

Child IDR 80,000

Some Rules at Museum:

- Do not touch the art, only touch with your eyes.

- Bag isn't allowed unless it's super tiny.

- No snacks and drinks.

- Follow the instructions. If the guard says your time is up, 

then stop taking a picture and please step outside.
(We have to queueing for like 30~40 minutes but we only have less than
one minute inside. Goodluck!)

Picture 2: They served several artists selling their works like Scarf, Shirts, Postcard, Books. 

Picture 3: I wanted to buy Yayoi's book but it's way too expensive lol i buried my intention.

Picture 4: Fell in love with this ticket shape cover.

Picture 6: Kusama's Journey

Picture 9: Narcissus Garden

Early Works

Picture 10-13: Early Work Sculpture

My Eternal Soul

Picture 14: My Eternal Soul

In this period, she return to Japan in 1973, earlier motifs such as Polka dots, flowers, and pumpkin reappeared as her practice underwent several shifts.

Picture 16: Dots Obsession in 2009

Picture 17: Great Gigantic Pumpkin in 2013

Picture 18: Her sign on one of her sculpture

Picture 19: The spirits of the pumpkins descended into the heavens in 2015

There are two types of palettes; Golden Galaxy and mine is Pinky Galaxy. They contains six different shades of shadow and one blush with saturn stick on the top. The colors for Golden are more goldish and yellowish namely Gold Planet, York Town, Gravity, Jupiter, Mars, Lonely Pluto, and Sunlight. Pinky Galaxy shades looks reddish but it turns peachy on your eyelids. They are Pink Planet, Andromeda, Moon Light, Mercury, Venus, Red Worm Hole, Time Warp. My favorite is moonlight for daily make-up and Red Worm Hole for the weekend, it gives a pretty pink shades on eyelid. 

Pros:

- Packaging is pretty and cute.

- Slim. It's easy to carry.

- Wearable shades for daily make up.

- It has matte and glitters shades at the same time.

- Affordable, it's only $23.

Cons:

- Not really blendable.

- Too Sheer, not pigmented. You need to apply several times.

- You could use "moonlight" as a highlighter, but it's way too subtle.

Where Can You Get It?

It's not available yet in Indo, I got mine from Myeongdong Seoul. I ordered this from my friend's husband who suddenly has a business trip to Korea. Maybe you can buy from Etude Website: 

Etude House

Picture: Sam (Moonrise Kingdom)

I feel like I merely had my sweet-seventeen celebration yesterday, when my bestfriends came to my house with my highschool-sweetheart to gave me some surprise and brought a basic-birthday cheesecake with ONE and SEVEN candle on the top with a giant teddy bear and a bouquet of roses which make me wants to puke... (A glimpse of reminiscing)

aaand then tadaaaaa! Ten years has passed... *literally sniffling*

Surprise tradition would be the same, blow a candles on a birthday cake with close friends, a birthday-song from office mates on a co-space, bla bla bla, but thank God my boyf won't bring me a bouquet of roses and a giant teddy bear looollll

I trudged my days through an adulthood, knowing that it will never be the same like those adolescence ol'days. It is too horrifying to contemplate about growing old, because whether you realize it or not, greater age brings greater responsibility. Talk about responsibility, something that I really afraid of. I was born as a last child in my family, they treated me like I was a Kid no matter how old I am. My dad will always dropped me off and picked me up at school. My mom will always took care of my uniform, my shoes, our breakfast through dinner. And my sister will always told me who to date, who can be my friends, what is bad and good for me. That simply because they all think I am just a Kid who barely can't do or decide anything properly with my own self. I used to live like that.

But now, I have to choose to living far away from them. The only thing on my mind was "How am I supposed to live without any directions and help from them?" My mom become paranoid at first and she won't let me go eventhough I tried so hard to convinced her. As stubborn as I am, I won't go anywhere without my mom's consent. She still called me everyday just to ask "Wake up yet? What did you eat? Don't forget to Pray" etc. But guys, living far from parents has gave me some lesson. I realized we can't rely on anything to anybody. At the end of the day, we HAVE TO do it by ourselves. We only have ourselves. We're the one who determine our future.

As I grew older, I became more selective to choose people who I'd rather hang out with. Ever heard about "Choose your friends wisely" because friends influence your life. Hanging out with a positive person can lift up your mood and vice versa, spending time with a negative person can drain you of joy. Having a thousand acquaintances feel wasted nowadays. I still can handle casual chit-chat "What've you been up to lately?" But I can only give a hasty explanation if they choose to ask further. I don't want small talk, fake laughing, bits and bobs of gossiping around. I wanna have a deep-long conversation radiating a good vibes till I forget the time that I spend. I get rid of some of my friends by not hangout with them anymore. Anytime they wanna meet, I make an excuse like "Sorry, I can't. Been busy with works lately" or "I have another appointment, sorry." Heck, that make me sounds like a bitch, in fact this tiny speck of dust try not to waste any precious time with them and feeling uncomfortable instead. It's not about quantity, it's quality what matters the most.

Currently, I feel fed up with my routine (or with my job?) I'm not sure. I feel like I didn't gain anything at this age, I didn't acquire any achievement until now. I had a good position right now in office. All I do is controlling people below me, making a report and contributes with some project, bla bla bla. But I don't like who am I working for (The company's system is obscure). There is a tendency that lead to something bad might happen soon if I choose to stay here a bit longer. Beside, this isn't something that I wanna do for my whole life. Meanwhile, witnessing my friends had a great job with splendid salary, getting married with their true love, taking vacation to greece-norway-iceland, having kids, and live happily ever after. We're living in Indonesia where people measure maturity through marriage and casually accused others as an immature slash unsuccessful slash wholly inadequate person if we're not get married yet. And here I am, stuck with a shitty job and fear of marriage still haunting me. I know I know, peer pressures is stupid, right? Some might say "Don't ever compare yourself with others, there is no comparison between sun and moon. They shine when it's their time".

At this stages, I encounter the intersection between "I should do something with my life" or "I should make money" is quite confusing. Part of me wanna do something that I care about which won't give a great income, or I'm gonna stuck here, continue the routine moderately, setting my fake effing laugh and then swearing at home (which is kinda frustating) and instantly produce some of good money. I am struggling with the balance of What I want and What I need. Probably the latter,  Do not settle for less if you deserve more, right?